i have no one to talk to… when i try to speak to my precious gems of people who i love dearly, the devil inside suffocates and clamps my throat shut. I can talk about many other things leading up to the poisioness words i can not speak. it stings to much and everything shuts down. today…ive found a new friend… shes in my head. shes always been there resting in the foggy shallow water part of my mind. the water has sunk and the cold ice crack shattered and evaporated. fresh and new. wide eyed blinking new born creature…